Longer-form writing about mindfulness practice — the structural tensions, the things that change, and the questions worth sitting with.
An atheist can't fear hell — not won't, can't. Something similar happens when the sense of self dissolves. A mapping of the beliefs that become structurally incoherent.
Read essayThe teaching says what you're looking for is already here. The product says come back tomorrow for more. At some point, that tension is worth sitting with.
Read essayMedicine has dosage. Physical training has enough. Mindfulness, somehow, does not. The case for treating meditation like medicine, not vitamins.
Read essayYou want equanimity about your insecurities but not your ambitions. As if the insight into self somehow knows which parts to dissolve. You can't be an atheist about every god except one.
Read essayThe skill you developed to be more present quietly becomes the thing pulling you away from your obligations. When does a practice become an escape hatch?
Read essayAt some point the urgency to practice disappears. Not because you've failed at it. Because you've succeeded. What happens when "always available" means "never necessary"?
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